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HELLO

"..."

GOODBYE

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post-cyoa

[depressured]

[ Sir. Sir. Sir.

Are you alive, sir-- ]

[selfconcept]

[ A few hours after the death, Hien can be seen lying down near the river flat on his back with his checkerboard patterned eyes wide open, looking up at the "sky".

He knows Mafuyu is there, but he doesn't react to her presence. He's fully aware of what he did, and thinking back to their first encounter of when he was a puppy in order to not scare her... it all seems funny now. He won't initiate things unless she does, so that she can be given control of a situation. ]

[depressured]

[ Appreciated.

Mafuyu studies him for a moment, then slowly sinks down to sit beside him and his pancaked self. ]

How are you feeling?

[selfconcept]

[ Hien momentarily closes his eyes, but reopens them. ]

"Fine, but guilty about the earlier violence."

[depressured]

Did you want to hurt them?

[selfconcept]

"No. I didn't feel good about it either, because they're people I like."

[ ... ]

"I lashed out, because I thought I was nothing. All my memories and experiences... rendered to nothing. And being who I am, that part of me wouldn't stand for it."

[depressured]

[ She's quiet for a moment. ]

You know you're something, right? At the very least, to me.

[selfconcept]

"... I know I am now. Wherever I was really messed with my head into thinking I became nothing."

[ ... ]

"I still appreciate you saying so. Thanks."

[depressured]

You're welcome.

These things... can really play with your mind. So I think it's important to have time to ground yourself.

[selfconcept]

"I think so too."

[ He nods in agreement. ]

"This isn't the first time something like this happened to me, but it's terrible either way."

[depressured]

Is there anything I can do?

[selfconcept]

[ Hien legitimately takes his time to think about this. ]

"... I'm not sure. People might scold you if they see you with me right now since I turned into a monster."

[ Everything is still raw, after all. ]

[depressured]

[ Her eyes narrow, slightly. ]

I don't care about that. You didn't want to hurt them and that's the most important thing.

[selfconcept]

[ ....

Hien can't help but to look over at Mafuyu and... laughs. Just a little. Like he can't believe what he just heard. ]

"I'm sorry. I know you're being serious, so thanks. I'm just... in disbelief at how forgiving you guys are."

[depressured]

I understand. Everyone is strange.

[ a nod. ]

I've learned to accept it.

[selfconcept]

"Everyone is strange, but I hope this doesn't skew your perspective when you go back."

[ To her normal life. With singing vocaloids. And music worlds. And--okay yeah that's not really normal. ]

[depressured]

[ She tilts her head at that, then shakes it. ]

I won't.

[selfconcept]

"You have a good head on your shoulders, Mafuyu. I hope it'll stay that way."

[depressured]

I also hope so. I'll do my best.

[ This is so solemn. ]

[selfconcept]

[ Hien nods. He'll stay on the ground a bit longer and space out in friendly silence unless Mafuyu wanted to talk about something else. ]

[depressured]

[ She is fine sitting in companionable silence. It's great, actually. ]

[selfconcept]

[ hella


frees u ]