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[ yeah that's essentially his life and he hates how the cyoa "trips" work because he was actually in the smack dab middle of a terrible cyoa before coming here and it sounds so much like it like how familiar people are just there to make him suffer. just like usual!! except everyone around him is suffering!! internally cries about it forever

and yes. ]

"... Right. And you had to come over here. Why do you have so many souls in you? Do you eat these?"

[ He doesn't think Obikawa eats them, but he doesn't know how else to break into this topic. ]

[NOT HIM HAVING CYOAS JUST BUILT INTO HIS LIFE. He's really just watching everyone else get put through the same wringer he's been going through. My god.]

Yeah, I did. Tokinaga made me go out of my way so he owes me now!

[HE DOES NOT. This stupid loser is just happy to be around him again, anyway. That said, his expression is a little like a cat smelling a weird smell for a second because he has not yet arrived at the point where he becomes [redacted] and realizes that [redacted].]

I eat humans sometimes? They stay with me so I don't like eating too many of them, especially since they taste like shit.

[ yeah and that blond fucker renatus aka the torture guy is orchestrating them so hien is just :tails: about it all the time

anyway. kittykawa........ love how that could refer to 3289598729 people ]

"They stay inside? I thought you shit stuff out."

[ absolutely unhinged topics to talk about casually ]

[NOT RENATUS THE TORTURE GUY. WHY IS HE OUT HERE AGAIN GET THAT GUY OFF THE STAGE!!! GET HIEN OUTTA THERE!!! it really could though it's fine

THIS IS SUCH AN UNHINGED FUCKING CONVERSATION HELP ME.]

I do! I shit out the bones and stuff! But the rest stays inside.

[There may even be a little piece of Hien in there now, who knows. why is ag so wild.]

[ He's always out there... toxic yaoi without romance from hien's side ]

"Do you like... nurture the stuff inside you?"

[ Like a--never mind. He won't say anything about mpreg.

And you know what. Sure. Do you want tiny self powers aka the ability to know about Obikawa's other selves whenever he wants or something that basically functions as a 1UP except you just stay in your injured state until you heal. Does this get nerfed. This is so funny. Hien's already fuckin tattered soul, a piece that stays with Obikawa forever. ]

"... I think I see me in there too."

[ this is also why hien thinks he shouldn't be spreading his genes around ]

[the toxic yaoi do be hittin...]

Nurture? [LIKE MPREG??? HE IS AN LI IN OTOMATE'S NEWLY ANNOUNCED OMEGAVERSE GAME.] No? They're just there.

[THIS REALLY IS SO FUCKING FUNNY THOUGH HELP. IT'S JUST HANGING OUT IN THERE NOW. Him glancing back through the timelines like hey that shit's whackadoodle. Meanwhile Hien said i won't bang but then he got vored by a creature with [redacted] in its stomach.

...

Looking down at his stomach, speaking of, and patting it once.]

Yeah? Huh. Yeah! Weird. If you're out here, you shouldn't still be in there, but you shouldn't be out here at all in the first place.

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"Yeah, but I'm an alien so you don't have to think about it too hard."

[ To save Obikawa from Thinking. The great nemesis. ]

"It's like getting a limited edition rare, so keep it well, yeah? Do you feel weird though?"

[ Hien is aware that they just came out of the river, but like. Other weird things. ]

[Thanks he hates using his braincell so he'll just accept this answer.]

Haha, aliens really do work differently, huh? Space! [SPACE, MAN! They are twin stars from the two great unknowns: space and the deep fucking sea. He also perks up a little at the notion that he just got a limited edition rare...]

Yeah, sure! It'll stay here with me. [PATS STOMACH. And then:] Can't feel my toes!

[OR ANYTHING ELSE. This was not what he was asking but he doesn't know the river has effects yet.]

"... Toes...?"

[ He was thinking more along the lines of the new toys I gave you to play with, but what. Toes. Toes??? ]

"Like, you can't feel it? It's numb? Or..."

[ Hien has actually been going blind here and there, but he just accepted it as something that happens so he continues on as normal, but also because it coincides with him thinking that his ONE BLOCKADE FROM TURNING INTO A MONSTER FOREVER IS DEAD and his body fucks up for some time when his other selves die, so.

He looks down at Obikawa's feet. Are his feet still there, actually. I know they are, but Hien is double checking. ]

"Is it a side effect of you like... turning into a snake?"

[ SHEDDING INTENSIFIES ]

[imagine if i told you his feet are not in fact still there

they are but that would be funny. He just lifts a leggy up and pats it. HIEN CAN YOU STOP JUST ACCEPTING RANDOMLY GOING BLIND HERE AND THERE. He will address the other weirdness soon but being numb is funky as hell. He thought it was just coldness from the river at first, but the cold is gone and now there is just nothing.]

Whole leg's numb. Hands and face, too. It's never happened before, so I think it might be this place.

[Purgatory is just another godly domain...]

"Lemme see..."

[ He goes over to Obikawa and

pinches his cheek. Hard. ]

[His sense of feeling comes back just in time for this.]

Hey—!

[ oh okay

pinches harder and pulls ]

[WHY TEH HELL. He pulls to the other side and rolls away.]

You're lucky I don't feel like eating you twice.

"Unfortunately for you, I'd try eating you again..."

[ However. ]

"... except you're Tokinaga's friend. God. I fucked up."

[ Just fuckin lies down on his own back on the ground ]

I'd win again!

[DEBATABLE CONSIDERING HE DID NOT EVEN WIN THIS TIME. But he also leans over as Hien becomes one with the dirt...]

Did you promise him that you wouldn't eat anyone, too?

"No. I can't promise something like that. He looked happy while talking about you, so you're obviously special to him."

[ He doesn't mean it as a romantic way, but damn. ]

[Sometimes it's not platonic and not romantic but a secret third more eldritch and insane thing.

Either way, he is perhaps a little surprised because he's well aware of the fact that he makes Tokinaga's life harder in a lot of ways even if he's not exactly understanding of the emotions or the reasoning, but he also seems pleased to hear this. THAT'S HIS NEIGHBOR!! His silly lil blorbo who suffers every day...]

Yeah? [HeheHE!] But it's still fine. He'll probably just be mad at me for eating you after everything, even though you aren't human. I don't think he'll yell at you.

"I'm not worried about him yelling at me. He can yell at me all he wants... I'm just more worried about his mental state."

[ Mister empathy.... tokinaga must be protected. ]

[He is too good for this world... HE IS GENUINELY TOO GOOD.]

Yelling at you would probably make it worse. Any time I've seen him do something like that, he makes a face after like he wants to go curl up under a rock and die.

"It makes a lot more sense now about how he reacted when I ate the keys..."

[ Because his best friend was in there!! Or something!! Secret third thing.</small? ] "Empathy is great, but too much is..."

Oh, yeah. He probably didn't know what to do. His face was pretty funny!

[JUST GOING INTO SHOCK. He loves Tokinaga's fucking expressions my god. There's a curious little cant of his head at that, though.]

Too much is what?

"It burns you down fast."

[ my HTML!!!! ]

"You really are that kind of friend..."

[me looking at it being dead and cruelly tagging you back anyway

Anyway, he frowns a little at the first statement but he's also DISTRACTED BY THE SECOND.]

What kind of friend?

"The kind of friend that's annoying so you'd be gruff about it, but when they're gone, you can feel the emptiness very clearly and miss them."

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