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[selfconcept]

"No. I can't promise something like that. He looked happy while talking about you, so you're obviously special to him."

[ He doesn't mean it as a romantic way, but damn. ]

[voring]

[Sometimes it's not platonic and not romantic but a secret third more eldritch and insane thing.

Either way, he is perhaps a little surprised because he's well aware of the fact that he makes Tokinaga's life harder in a lot of ways even if he's not exactly understanding of the emotions or the reasoning, but he also seems pleased to hear this. THAT'S HIS NEIGHBOR!! His silly lil blorbo who suffers every day...]

Yeah? [HeheHE!] But it's still fine. He'll probably just be mad at me for eating you after everything, even though you aren't human. I don't think he'll yell at you.

[selfconcept]

"I'm not worried about him yelling at me. He can yell at me all he wants... I'm just more worried about his mental state."

[ Mister empathy.... tokinaga must be protected. ]

[voring]

[He is too good for this world... HE IS GENUINELY TOO GOOD.]

Yelling at you would probably make it worse. Any time I've seen him do something like that, he makes a face after like he wants to go curl up under a rock and die.

[selfconcept]

"It makes a lot more sense now about how he reacted when I ate the keys..."

[ Because his best friend was in there!! Or something!! Secret third thing.</small? ] "Empathy is great, but too much is..."

[voring]

Oh, yeah. He probably didn't know what to do. His face was pretty funny!

[JUST GOING INTO SHOCK. He loves Tokinaga's fucking expressions my god. There's a curious little cant of his head at that, though.]

Too much is what?

[selfconcept]

"It burns you down fast."

[ my HTML!!!! ]

"You really are that kind of friend..."

[voring]

[me looking at it being dead and cruelly tagging you back anyway

Anyway, he frowns a little at the first statement but he's also DISTRACTED BY THE SECOND.]

What kind of friend?

[selfconcept]

"The kind of friend that's annoying so you'd be gruff about it, but when they're gone, you can feel the emptiness very clearly and miss them."

[voring]

[THE ENERGY OF JUST (POINTS AT SELF) MOI? Dahut's spirit is in here.]

You think? Mostly I just take his soy sauce.

[selfconcept]

[ dahut just going peekaboo ]

"That's not what he told me... and I doubt he was lying."

[ You take his exasperation and eat it. ]

[voring]

[LE BAGUETTE HON HON oh my god im finally not fantasy french (ignores scaramouche)

He is a depression-eater despite also having depression.]

What'd he tell you?

[selfconcept]

[ grabs that grape and eats him ]

"Ask him yourself. I'm not gonna tell you."

[ He says this despite being fully aware that Tokinaga might not tell Obikawa. ]

[voring]

[as is deserved]

Fine, fineee, if you're gonna make things a pain for me.

[There is a very high chance he's just gonna fuckin forget about this in all of the chaos that follows. But also:] Feels like there's a door there now that wasn't there before.

[The adhd of looping back around to a conversation point from a million years ago.]

[selfconcept]

"What door?"

[ The conversation point that Hien fuckin forgot. He can't even use Memory's powers as a memory aide because THEY'RE GONE. ]

[voring]

[CAN YOU STOP SHEDDING PIECES OF YOURSELF.]

Inside. [Tapping the side of his head. There's a little beat, and then:]

Before the cage, I spent an entire week in a hallway. It had more doors than there are in an entire world! And I walked into a lot of them, every hour for every day I was there, and found all kinds of different places on the other side with the same people. It feels kind of like that.

[selfconcept]

[ That is what Self does.................. or no, it's just me. i am the problem. taps my discord role name ]

"So kinda like... alternate universes?"

[ If it is, then that's easy for Hien to understand. That's his entire thing. ]

[voring]

[me going to look at it to see what yaywon assigned you and nodding]

Like that, but smaller! Less, I think. [Only him instead of entire WORLDS and DOORS and BILLIONS EVERYTHING WILD OUT THERE.]

[selfconcept]

"Oh, like highlighting important scenarios?"

[ AU where Obikawa chose not to eat Fia... ]

[voring]

[AU WHERE HE JUST BIT HER LIKE HE WANTED TO INSTEAD OF ACCIDENTALLY SWALLOWING HER.]

A little, yeah! [i have no idea how this power he fucking absorbed from hien works but that's okay because his ass doesn't either.] Maybe it's from the river.

[selfconcept]

[ Obikawa is just aware of his AU selves more! Yippee! The AU where he was never "Obikawa" is one. I hope he has fun with that. All these possibilities... ]

"The river?"

[ .............................................................

Hien's single brain cell finally gets to work-- ]

"... Oh, you have..."

[ He can't bring himself to finish that sentence and just covers his eyes with his arm. He's so done with today. ]

[voring]

[HE'S GOING TO LEARN SO MUCH ABOUT HIMSELF...

But he's also just sort of blinking at that, watching as Hien just dies about things all over again.]

You're really going through it all the time, huh.

[selfconcept]

[ ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

When Obikawa says that, Hien just lies down on his side. Maybe if he decides to drown in the river, the Oblivion can take him. ]

[voring]

[WHAPS HIS SHOULDER.]

You got a gloomy sort of look when you do that!

[selfconcept]

[ man, shut yo ass up

... is what Hien would have said, but he just grumbles when his shoulder is whapped. ]

"Unfortunately, I'm a gloomy guy."