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[ Of course he wouldn't say anything. Hien isn't surprised. ]

"... I wanted to give him time at the charity auction--to extend his lifespan which would make him healthier longer as a side effect. Unsurprisingly, he refused it."

[ Let it be known that Hien tried, but he thinks Thorns will understand why Elysium didn't take up on the offer. He'd know him best, after all. The elusive guy. But that's not what happened in regards to all. This. ]

"If you want to know, I'll share my side. If you don't, that's fine too. I'm not gonna force someone to listen if they don't wanna hear it."

Only if you want to.

[ it seems a little mean to make Hien talk about a clearly complicated situation, but. who knows. maybe actually discussing it might help. ]

"Alright. He suddenly created distance between us and acted coldly. So I started to gradually back off from then on, since I thought that was what he wanted--distance and to stop whatever we were before. If that's what he wanted, I would have been fine with that. Just wish he would have told me directly, but I can't count on that happening."

[ Hien is a little quiet as he tries to figure out how to word what he wants to say next. ]

"The scissors that the Purgatory denizens gave out... a few people came up to me that night, telling me to use it for various purposes or suggesting a use for them. As a person, I would just take that in stride and think about their suggestions. But for the part of me that doesn't make me human, I couldn't tolerate nor stand the thought of erasing my experiences nor connections, because no matter how 'good' or 'bad' they were, they were still a part of me."

"So when Elysium handed me the pair of scissors and told me to sever all connections with him, I held myself back the best I could even though I was furious. The audacity even though he knew how it would make me feel."

[ That was the best he could do and he still punched him? Yeah. He was Big Mad. ]

"... I returned the scissors to him and wrote my goodbyes on a note. It'll take time for me to get over my feelings, but I'm working on it. Even after all that, I don't dislike him. There will only be two people I hate, and he doesn't even come close to either of them."

Edited 2025-12-31 19:46 (UTC)

[ he has some Thoughts about all of this, but in the end thorns really is just an outside party who is only vaguely connected to this because of his relationship to one of the people involved. there's really nothing to do here but try to move on, which is something both hien and elysium are definitely aware of and trying to do.

...

but it really does show just tangled and complicated making connections with others can be. it doesn't always end well, even when it seems like it might at first. ]

He probably thought pulling back without saying anything would be easier than saying something directly. [ ... ] Which is also a coward's move, but what's done is done.

[ you can only live with your choices. ]

I think you'll manage, even if it might be hard.

"I think I will too. Thanks for listening."

[ He genuinely means it.

(audience laugh track about future threads) ]

... Mm. It's really the least I can do.

[ especially since he's aware that if he wasn't here, things might have went differently. ]

[ They sure could have. Hien isn't thinking about that at all and is just thankful for Thorns. ]

"I know you'll take good care of him. If you need anything from me for whatever reason for whoever, let me know."

[ Because he still has respect for Thorns regardless of everything, so that's that. ]

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