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It's not about what you should say. I'd rather hear what you truly feel all the time, even when you're offended, think I did something shitty, or whatever else.

[ flashbacks to I will know.

But the puppy in front of Tsukasa just sits with a little blep. ]

It doesn't matter if a lot or little happened to you directly. A single event can traumatize someone for life, and I'm not playing the contest of who has the bigger trauma. It's different for everyone.

And I care a lot about you, Tsukasa. I just want to see you grow up to the best person you think you should be. And if I'm the one that holds that back for whatever reason... of course I wouldn't like that.

[It really is wild to hear all of this from a puppy whose tongue is out in a little blep.

Just. Tsukasa feels like he should be used to this, maybe, given his SEKAI--but at least the plushies sound like he'd expect them to sound. Hien sounds like a full grown man like this.]

I'm not--I'm not traumatized. I'm fine. And! You're the one who--

[--died. And Soo-won--in his memory, it's just part of Soo-won left, and so much blood, and Tsukasa's free hand, the one not resting lightly on dog Hien's head, curls into a tight fist.

It's not as satisfying as he wants it to be. His nails are too well-tended even now to bite into the skin.]

... Hien, you aren't the one doing anything to hold me back. I don't think you did something shitty, I think this place has been picking at us and what makes us ourselves for weeks! And that isn't anyone's fault, but I--

[A shaky breath in. There isn't anything he can do about it. And no matter what, he has to keep going, because Saki is in the depths of this maze.]

--I'll keep going. No matter what.

Mm. I know you will.

[ Hien nuzzles against Tsukasa's hand. ]

But I'm really glad to hear that. I really am. Thanks, Tsukasa.

[... And at that nuzzle, the tension drains out of his shoulders, and he huffs out a breath, ruffling Hien's doggy fur.]

Honestly, you have nothing to thank me for. Once again, I was being looked out for by you, even though I came here to try to do the opposite.

[ me forgetting i uploaded the dog icon last night ]

That usually seems to happen with a lot of people... I wonder why.

[ It's fine. ]

Anyway, I'm good. Again, I'm more worried about others, especially Hak. And I'll give him the space he wants if he needs it.

[PUPPY!!!

...

Tsukasa just heaves out a sigh at that, and pushes himself up to stand. Yeah. Hak. Hien. Everyone here is weird (affectionate).]

I've been meaning to go check on him anyway, so... I'll at least try to do that. And everyone else, of course!

I feel... more motivated than ever!

[CAN'T CATCH HIM SCARY THOUGHTS.]

Yeah? Do your best. I'll be rooting for you.

[ His tail wags. Yap.

Frees u ]

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