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HELLO

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GOODBYE

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[selfconcept]

"I don't regret doing those things."

[ Hien feels the kick, but he doesn't kick in return. He does hug the jacket though, like it's some security blanket. ]

"... So, what is it? Did you need me?"

[transmit]

You regret falling asleep?

[ ignores the question ]

[selfconcept]

"The more you ask me, the less I'll regret it."

[ binch ]

[transmit]

[ He just rests his chin on his hand and stares. ]

Then go back to sleep. You're better behaved that way.

[selfconcept]

"You wanted to know where I was for a reason, didn't you?"

[ circles back around to the question ]

"So spill."

[transmit]

Yeah. For this.

[ Just says 'this' without bothering to define it. ]

What, did you want to spar instead? [ He puts down his book and arches a brow. ] Then you should've picked somewhere other than the library to meet me.

[selfconcept]

"What do you mean by 'this'?"

[ He's going to keep pointing it out. Stop dancing in circles!! ]

"I already sparred with Thorns, so I'm good for now."

[transmit]

Okay.

[


He swaps back to reading the YA novel…. They are two brats in a room. ]

[selfconcept]

[ They sure are... Hien tries to swipe the book out of Elysium's hand. ]

[transmit]

Are we taking turns now? That's considerate of you.

[selfconcept]

"... I just don't see the point of you asking me where I am like you want to talk to me about something and then... not talking about it."

[ just throws the fuckin book over his own shoulder. goodbye book. ]

[transmit]

[ The book makes a solid bonk against something it definitely shouldn't, followed by a cascade of crashes somewhere in the distance. He winces, but that's okay. No love for Felicia, damn. ]

There's nothing in particular I want to talk about. Whatever you want to say, I'll listen. And if you've already said everything you needed to everyone else, that's fine, too. I'm here just to be here.

[ A hum. ]

I already told you that you're free to be whoever you want to be.

[selfconcept]

[ Hien just stays there, unmoving for a bit before he takes the jacket and puts it over Elysium's head. ]

"... Did I do something wrong?"

[transmit]

[ Sure, this is his hat now… ]

Why do you ask that?

[selfconcept]

[ Elysium's very long hat...

Hien pauses, unsure if he wants to say it or not. It isn't like him to hesitate, but. ]

"You feel even more distant than before."

[transmit]

[ He pulls his jacket low enough to only obscure half his face, brow quirked. ]

Did you want me to start asking what happened? How else you feel?

[ like that's ever been what their relationship has been about. ]

[selfconcept]

"No, it's..."

[ He feels a familiar sensation crawl up his throat, but he tamps it down. ]

"It's nothing. Never mind."

[ He backs up, just like how it was when he was a monster, unsure of what to do. But he turns and walks off this time. ]

[transmit]

[ …

He doesn't chase. Not only does he have no right to, but it'd be irresponsible. Only when the footsteps recede into the distance does he sigh, leaning back in his chair and staring at the ceiling, unfurling a familiar feather to twirl it idly in his hand.

Eventually, he closes his eyes. Breathes in, breathes out. ]

Buen camino, Hien.