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[selfconcept]

HELLO

"..."

GOODBYE

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[selfconcept]

"I think of death and loss of self separate."

[ ..... ]

"Who did this to you anyway? I know it wasn't me."

[expulse]

[ Hums. ]

A blonde man. I didn't recognize him.

[selfconcept]

"A blond man."

[ He thinks back. ]

"I was also accosted by some blond. Creepy fucker."

[ he forgot his one-sided toxic yaoi ]

[expulse]

[ Okay. ]

It was probably the same. He was looking for someone.

[selfconcept]

"Hopefully not me. I stabbed him enough times that he should have died."

[expulse]

He was badly injured when I saw him.

[ Well. ]

You've forgotten him.

[selfconcept]

[ There's a slow blink. ]

"Maybe it's a good thing that I did."

[expulse]

Maybe. [ Watching. ] You don't feel as though something is missing?

[selfconcept]

"I do, but you win some, you lose some. I got my sense of self back, and that's the minimum I need to function properly."

[ Maybe if he words it like this, it'll be harder to be lumped in as a person. ]

[expulse]

So it doesn't bother you?

[ Hm. ]

[selfconcept]

"I've gained and lost many things over my many years of existence. So... no, it doesn't bother me."

[expulse]

[ Hm... ]

No longer worried about being left behind then?

[selfconcept]

"Oh, that."

[ How embarrassing, but Hien doesn't have any pride about it. ]

"There was this weird picture book that kept scribbling me out... and with my mindset back then, I was scared of being erased."

[expulse]

It was cute.

[ Not, like, the distress, but the sentiment. ]

[selfconcept]

[ Hien just looks at him like









ok ]

[expulse]

[ Smiles! ]

[selfconcept]

"... But thanks again, for saving our asses back there."

[expulse]

[ Shrugs. ]

I'm overdue for a lesson in teamwork. [ They are a team. ] I assume others have come to worry.

[selfconcept]

"... Yeah. A team."

[ Hien also thinks he himself is bad at teamwork. ]

"I can't believe how forgiving everyone is. I'm probably gonna regret saying that when I eventually talk to Hak, huh."

[expulse]

You think he won't forgive you too? He seems softhearted.

[selfconcept]

"He's kind, but he definitely needs some time. He's the one that I'm worried about the most."

[ And not Soowon? The guy he literally killed? Yeah. ]

"I'm fine with Hak developing a grudge against me until the end of time. I'm just worried about his mental health."

[expulse]

[ Pauses a while, thinking this through. He really has no experience dealing with people's emotions.

And he's not sure that he wants to either. Who cares about any of these people that will disappear from his life once they leave here...? ]

He appears to be surrounded by people who are invested in his well-being. He also seems annoying enough to pull himself through it.

[ Annoyingly persistent... He does like it though. ]

You won't miss that friendship, either?

[ Does it fall under "you win some, you lose some"? ]

[selfconcept]

[ Hien is well versed in saying farewells or just leaving without saying anything. Sometimes, that's just life for you. ]

"I would, but him being happy is more important than my selfishness."

[expulse]

You're also very soft-hearted.

[ Pats his head. ]

[selfconcept]

"And you're not?"

[ Just looks at Sylus and leaves his own hair alone. ]