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[selfconcept]

HELLO

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GOODBYE

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[selfconcept]

i think that depends on who i'm taking care of the kid with
or if i'm a single parent
or if the kid wants a different name in the first place

[ uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Right. If he has his own biological kid or something. ]

mimi
after two influential people in my life
mihyun and miyoung

[handfast]

[ whoa....my lore ]

what did they do
were they close friends

[selfconcept]

mihyun was my older sister
miyoung was my childhood friend

[handfast]

oh
what were they like

[selfconcept]

my sister was like a combination of mafuyu and medea

My friend was like......
uh
I dont think i can use anybody here as an example
But she was like some mafia boss queen that loved to have fun

[handfast]

[ ... ]

i cant imagine someone whos like mafuyu and medea both
how does that work

[selfconcept]

a hardworking "genius" in every sense of the word
but also not very emotional

[handfast]

[ thanks for spelling it out bud ]

oh
did your parents tell her not to be
or was she always like that

[selfconcept]

i was the younger one so i dunno but
it could be the result of her extremely strict upbringing

[handfast]

were your parents nicer to you because you were younger?

[selfconcept]

no they liked to pretend i didnt exist

[handfast]

what
how come
youre their son

[selfconcept]

that was exactly why
children should be seen
but not heard
or some bullshit like that
anyway im glad that i didnt turn out like them

[handfast]

thats stupid
sorry for your crappy parents
and yeah youre way better than them

[selfconcept]

all i can do now is just occasionally think back on it
and realize
wow
it was some shitty parenting
id like to think that im pretty different than before
i craved validation and wanted to be helpful in any way