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selfconcept) wrote2025-11-13 07:51 pm
selfconcept) wrote2025-11-13 07:51 pm
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HELLO
"..."
GOODBYE
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"..."
GOODBYE
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[ Okay he feels even more sorry than before. His Yosuke!!!! Without his voice!!!! Who is he!!!! ]
"... Thanks though, for helping me. In trying to restrain me when I spiraled out of control. I'm glad that I was very weakened by then."
"... Thanks though, for helping me. In trying to restrain me when I spiraled out of control. I'm glad that I was very weakened by then."
[HE SURE DOES. . . tbqh that is when he clocked that the shadow was Hien]
I don't want you to disappear, either.
[he says with a slow exhale]
I asked because. . . I remember you got upset when you felt like people expected you to be "good" all the time. I wondered if this was something similar. . . or if it was another thing entirely.
I don't want you to disappear, either.
[he says with a slow exhale]
I asked because. . . I remember you got upset when you felt like people expected you to be "good" all the time. I wondered if this was something similar. . . or if it was another thing entirely.
[ Hien nods. He'll stay on the ground a bit longer and space out in friendly silence unless Mafuyu wanted to talk about something else. ]
[ Hien stays quiet for a moment, thinking on what Edamura says. ]
... Can I turn back into a person?
... Can I turn back into a person?
[ Hien's expression relaxes and he quietly breathes out. ]
"Just know that it's how I feel too."
[ regarding this whole crashout and traumatizing lucien ]
"Just know that it's how I feel too."
[ regarding this whole crashout and traumatizing lucien ]
[ he doesn't want hien to feel bad!!! just bonks his head into his chest like an annoying cat. ]
On the one hand, I'm also glad you were weakened because that could've been worse. On the other hand, I don't like that you were because it means things were really bad out there. I didn't want something like this to happen to you.
On the one hand, I'm also glad you were weakened because that could've been worse. On the other hand, I don't like that you were because it means things were really bad out there. I didn't want something like this to happen to you.
"A blond man."
[ He thinks back. ]
"I was also accosted by some blond. Creepy fucker."
[ he forgot his one-sided toxic yaoi ]
[ He thinks back. ]
"I was also accosted by some blond. Creepy fucker."
[ he forgot his one-sided toxic yaoi ]
[ Hien sighs and just hugs him again, gently patting his head. ]
"Of course you didn't... I'd start questioning it if you did and maybe go 'okay' to see how you would react."
"Of course you didn't... I'd start questioning it if you did and maybe go 'okay' to see how you would react."
[ She is fine sitting in companionable silence. It's great, actually. ]
[...
there is the kind of stunned silence of someone who is definitely not used to hearing that, or thinking about his death(s) in any way except that he'd be letting down the people who invested in him, giving some shitty people the free pass to do as they'd like without him to stop them, and/or being a burden to the people who'd have to deal with the fallout of him dying. thinking about people being... emotionally upset??? about him dying is still a new one.]
Thank you, Hien. [he'd unfortunately still do it but he really is touched.] I'm very fortunate to know you.
there is the kind of stunned silence of someone who is definitely not used to hearing that, or thinking about his death(s) in any way except that he'd be letting down the people who invested in him, giving some shitty people the free pass to do as they'd like without him to stop them, and/or being a burden to the people who'd have to deal with the fallout of him dying. thinking about people being... emotionally upset??? about him dying is still a new one.]
Thank you, Hien. [he'd unfortunately still do it but he really is touched.] I'm very fortunate to know you.
[ Thank you, Edamura. That's why he asked. Hien personally wouldn't mind, but he thinks Edamura would. So. He's trying to be courteous. Anyway, the gear turning noises are back and Hien replaces the dog in all his humanoid glory, sitting across from him. ]
"... I'm going to tell you what's in my shard."
[ Not who, but what. He was courteous for that before, but he leans in to quietly mumble it next to Edamura's ear. ]
"... I'm going to tell you what's in my shard."
[ Not who, but what. He was courteous for that before, but he leans in to quietly mumble it next to Edamura's ear. ]
[hilariously he actually wouldn't mind either. . . he just thinks Hien would. . .]
You are?
[there's no hiding the way Edamura's features grow slack with surprise, because he truly thought he would never learn what was in Hien's shard. he figured it was a secret Hien would take to the end of Purgatory, and that was fine by him. everyone deserved to have their secrets]
[. . . now isn't the time to think about the small flicker of warmth he feels at being wrong, though. how nice it is to be trusted. especially not when he tilts his head to listen]
[. . .]
You are?
[there's no hiding the way Edamura's features grow slack with surprise, because he truly thought he would never learn what was in Hien's shard. he figured it was a secret Hien would take to the end of Purgatory, and that was fine by him. everyone deserved to have their secrets]
[. . . now isn't the time to think about the small flicker of warmth he feels at being wrong, though. how nice it is to be trusted. especially not when he tilts his head to listen]
[. . .]
[ Same hat, except it took way too long for Hien to internalize it, but he still thinks it's a pain to deal with personally. ]
"Then thank me by taking better care of yourself. If you don't, I'm gonna start carting you around in my arms instead."
[ boy, you look like you need it ]
"Then thank me by taking better care of yourself. If you don't, I'm gonna start carting you around in my arms instead."
[ boy, you look like you need it ]
"Hopefully not me. I stabbed him enough times that he should have died."
[and he feels ice course through his veins, freezing his heart in his chest]
[for a moment, he is silent. for a moment, he hears nothing but the echoes of that answer reverberating in his mind. I don't want to disappear. I don't want you to disappear, either.]
[he reaches down to grasp Hien's hand tightly in his own, knuckles white, fingers trembling slightly]
. . . that's why. . .
[that's why Hien was so uncertain about making progress]
[for a moment, he is silent. for a moment, he hears nothing but the echoes of that answer reverberating in his mind. I don't want to disappear. I don't want you to disappear, either.]
[he reaches down to grasp Hien's hand tightly in his own, knuckles white, fingers trembling slightly]
. . . that's why. . .
[that's why Hien was so uncertain about making progress]
I saw some weird books in a room... and it felt like they were trying to erase my existence in a slow and painful way. I was more or less freaking out the entire time after that.
"It's never too late as long as you're here and alive, Lucien."
[ So Hien picks him up in his arms like a bridal carry. Yippee. ]
[ So Hien picks him up in his arms like a bridal carry. Yippee. ]
[ There's a slow blink. ]
"Maybe it's a good thing that I did."
"Maybe it's a good thing that I did."
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